Change in Satisfaction | Day #104

I’ve announced that in the last days of this year, I will be busy relaxing and reflecting on my 2020. So today, after creating some Growrilla graphics, I was mainly watching some videos and playing videogames.

I was playing some League of Legends and Counter-Strike Global Offensive which are multiplayer games. In previous blog posts, I indicated that in these videogames I’m very competitive and thus wants to always win since I was good at videogames.

However, even the wins today didn’t satisfy me anymore.

The videos that I watched were funny videos on YouTube from channels that I watched in my previous years.

However, at the end of the day, I’m not satisfied at all.

I’m afraid I don’t know how to relax anymore besides traveling (which is not an option right now).

The most joy I felt this year was the release of Growrilla.
Maybe cause it was the most recent.

I feel like right now, I get the most joy out of my side-projects.
Which are Growrilla and writing right now.

But should I be even doing these things when I have holidays?
I honestly don’t know.