I’m feeling the pressure and symptoms of burnout again after a body collapse caused due to it nine months ago. Now, while my body is not collapsing (yet), I’m noticing the symptoms.
I don’t feel like working at all most of the time. I’m emotionally less stable. My workouts feel worse or can’t go my all-out anymore. My thoughts are cloudy and loads of (annoying) things have a bigger negative impact on me.
What I realized is that it’s not always work-related though. Sometimes it is commitments that feel rushed. For example, for the last past few weeks, I’ve been traveling a lot while still having work responsibilities. Due to this, I’ve been feeling pressured to work, but also explore the new cities.
This pressure was self-inflicted and I wouldn’t want to do that again anymore. At least not to the extend I ‘need’ to explore the new city as much as possible. The planning was too tight with 4 hours work then 4 hours to several new locations then 4 hours work again to 2-4 exploring the city again. This is not maintainable, at least for me.
Also, I did have been working loads of overtime the last couple of weeks. Mainly due to some launches of new products and deadlines for some freelance work. Yes, also self-inflicted, but sometimes you can’t get around it.
For the rest of this month, I may be taking on less work and active. I’m having a trip planned to another new country/city this month, but that should be the last one. Then there are no hard deadlines that I need to uphold for my official job, indie-work, and freelance-work thus can take it easier.
The lack of sleep also didn’t help.
I have to look out for my health, cause I don’t want to experience that body collapse again nine months ago.